Family

I've really been looking forward to Thanksgiving. It would be the first time since just after Christopher came up here that we've all been together. I was looking forward to it so much, I was worried that something would get screwed up. I'm happy to report that nothing went wrong! Brandon and I got to the hotel in about 3 1/2 hours. We got the room that has the sofa sleeper so that all of us could be together. We had called Christopher when we got on the Greenway, so it wasn't long before he was knocking on our door. I had brought plenty of food, so we were soon munching away. We were laughing and joking and having fun being together again. As soon as Christopher found out that I had missed the last 3 episodes of "Chuck", he was going to Hulu so that we could all see it. After getting caught up, we went to his place to play some video games. We had brought our XBox 360, but the TV in the hotel didn't have anywhere to plug it in. Since the hotel is right next to where Christopher lives, we walked. I got to make my avatar for my gamer profile. It doesn't look exactly like me, but it's in the general ballpark. I watched Brandon and Christopher play "Little Big Planet" for awhile. It's a neat game. It could grow on me, given time. They then decided that it was time for them to play "Left 4 Dead". That is a really hard game! I've always sucked at zombie games with fast moving zombies, so I wasn't quite ready to try it. The biggest drawback that I saw was that there weren't many save places. That meant that you have to play for a really long time before you can stop or you lose your progress. I decided about midnight that I needed sleep. Brandon had a key, so I headed back to the hotel to get some sleep. I don't know when, or if, they'll show up here, but I'm going to bed very happy! I love having my family all together. The world seems right again. We aren't leaving until late Saturday afternoon, so we'll have another whole day to be together. Sleep well.

It's been a while since I blogged. I haven't done a whole lot of stuff, so I haven't really had anything to write about. Work is the same as usual. Friday was kind of fun. Since it was Halloween, we were allowed to wear costumes. Wearing a costume is like pretending to be someone else for a short time. I went as a Goddess. I didn't realize it until I saw the pictures that were taken of me, but, there were times when I was showing a LOT of cleavage! The pictures were put up on the library system's shared drive, so anyone in the county could see them. Crap! Oh well. I chose a costume that was in good taste, not frightening, and not slutty. How was I supposed to know that at times I looked busty? It's such a rare occurrence, I wouldn't have thought to worry about it. Well, on to other things. Rob is at a snake show, so Brandon and I have the house to ourselves until Monday. He's been playing Fallout 3 most of the day, while I watched Hulu. A couple of times during the day, we got together and played Lego Batman. We 100% completed a game, but there were some achievements that I couldn't get as player 2, so we started a new game with me as player 1. I finished watching the first season of Bones, then looked for the second. Hulu didn't have it! Damn! Now what? The library has the series, so I figured that I would check out season 2 there. What could I watch now, though? I know. I'll watch Buffy! Sorry Christopher. The actor that's in Bones is in Buffy, then in the spin-off Angel. I decided to watch Buffy, then watch Angel at another time. Well, it's time for another episode. I just want to say before going that I'm really glad that you guys went to Orlando. It was really nice of you all. I know that Christopher loves Full Sail and that he loves living in the Orlando area, but he misses have good friends to hang out with. You guys just made a good place even better. Sleep well!

Bones

Okay. I admit it. I get obsessions, too. After a boring day at work, I came home. I made tacos and finished Brisingr. It was great! It was supposed to be the final installment in a trilogy, but to wrap it all up would have made the book extremely long. It was really long as it is. I even read the acknowledgments. Now, keep in mind that the author graduated at fifteen, and wrote the first book at nineteen. He said that he got the part about a "lonely god" from a show and that the doctor could possibly travel to other realities. How could you not like this kid? He has great taste in TV. After finishing my book, I watched last nights episode of "Sanctuary". I was now caught up on my shows. What could I do while Rob watched football? I started watching the first episode of "Bones". I've now seen the first four episodes and I'm tempted to watch another one before I go to sleep. Now, I've seen the show before, just not the early episodes. I also see the books go out all the time at the library. It's a really good show as long as you don't have a weak stomach. I want to keep watching until I see all the episodes that are out. Since these early ones say that they expire in five days, I'd better settle in for a marathon! Sleep well, all.

Politics

I gave this blog the title of something that I truly dislike. I have found over the years, that many normal, rational people will become rabid dogs when discussing politics. The people that were already mouthy, know-it-alls become downright obnoxious! Case in point: I was in my room, watching all of the episodes of "Chuck" that I had missed, when Rob decided to turn on TV. His favorite channel is a news channel with shows like "Hannity and Colmes" and "The O'Reilly Factor". I avoid news channels whenever possible. There are enough depressing things in life that can't be avoided to subject myself to something that CAN be avoided. As usual, the topic of conversation on the news show had to do with Sarah Palin. I had pretty much decided that none of the candidates were worth voting for. Rob started in about the "nigger" communist and other crap. He always makes slurs about people he doesn't like, but when others are making those kinds of comments about someone he does like, he calls them ignorant and other derogatory names. I decided to piss him off. I told him that I had decided to vote. I was going to vote for everyone in my party. I'm a registered Democrat. Boy, did he get hot under the collar! He started in on how I was being ignorant and stupid by doing that. One thing led to another, and before I knew it, we started in on the candidates. He kept saying that women don't like Palin because she has morals. She didn't have an abortion when she found she was having a down syndrome baby. I told him that if she'd learned to keep her legs closed, or practice birth control when she was too old to be having a baby, it wouldn't have been an issue! Well, as usual, he tried turning it around by saying that meant that I hated his daughter, Tessa. Yeah, really downhill, huh? This is why I don't discuss politics! He stormed out of my room and hasn't come back in. Oh well. Guess I'll go to bed now. I have tomorrow off and plan to sleep in (as much as I can in my recliner). Sweet dreams, all. And Christopher, I'm glad that your schedule worked out so well for next semester. Getting up early would have really sucked for you :)

My Bad

I haven't blogged for a couple of days, so my title says it all. The last couple of days have been quiet. I got a 74 on my Statistics test (yuck). Yesterday, I watched "Dirty Jobs" when I got home from work. It was one of the funniest that I've seen. Mike Rowe had to castrate lambs. When he found out HOW the lambs were castrated, he said that it was the most disgusting job that he ever had. They expose the testicles, then bite them off! Gross! I was laughing so hard, I almost cried. Tonight, I watched "Mythbusters". Two nights in a row with great shows. They were testing the myth that people look better when you're drunk. Jamie, Adam and Carrie all rated pictures of the opposite sex while sober. Then they had a little to drink and got buzzed. They rated new pictures. Adam rated them better, Jamie rated them almost the same, and Carrie rated them worse! She said that she was a mean drunk. Next, they all got drunk and rated a combination of pictures from the first two groups. Once again, Adam rated them even higher, Jamie just about the same and this time, Carrie rated them a lot higher! It was a lot of fun to watch them. Adam and Jamie took on some of the sobering up myths, too. They tried coffee, putting their heads in ice water, a bracing slap and exercise. Man, are they funny when their drunk! Adam fell on his ass when exercising and just got right back up to try again. Jamie got to slap Adam, and when it was played in slow motion, it looked like Adam had a rubber face. After watching all this educational stuff, it was time for "South Park". How they manage to sink so low every week amazes me! It's sad that I find it so funny. Well, guess that's about all. Don't worry Christopher and James. I have no plans to make a video blog! lol
Good night and sweet dreams!

Lazy Weekend

I didn't get a chance to blog last night, but that's okay since I didn't do too much! I slept until close to 11 on Saturday. Then, I spent most of the day playing Lego Batman with Brandon. We were working on getting achievements and trying to 100% it. We played until Rob got here and had made it to 95.7%. So close! I sat reading while Rob watched football, then headed up to Christopher's room to sleep. I hate not being able to sleep in my recliner, but Rob needed it for his daughter, Tessa. I thought about trying to blog, but it wasn't worth the hassle I'd get from Rob, so I just went to bed. Today I got up earlier, around 9:45. I couldn't believe that no one else was up yet! The only reason that I was up was because I was meeting Jessica at the library so that we could go to Broadway Palms for a show. She had gotten 2 free tickets and thought I might like the show. It was called "Forbidden Broadway" and was a parody of Broadway hits. It was a pretty good show. We had a nice time and got to see what was coming up there. I saw a couple of shows that I'd like to see. Maybe I can get Rob to take me for my birthday. When I finally got home, Brandon and I continued with Lego Batman. There are some achievements that I can't get because I'm not player 1. That means that we will have to play it through a second time. We managed to get it 100% completed, but are still missing some achievements. Guess they'll have to wait til the second time through. All is quiet here. I'm going to bed when I'm done with this. I should have worked on homework this weekend, but since it's not due until Wednesday, I'll do it another time. Good night, all. Pleasant dreams.

Healing

I almost didn't blog tonight because I didn't want to write another depressing blog. I finally decided that since this for me anyway, it didn't really matter if it is depressing! I got through another day at work. I even managed not to cry while doing it. That's progress. I find myself thinking about him a lot. Wondering what I could have done differently. In hindsight, I think that I would have spared him all the force feedings and IVs and just let him die quietly. I hate knowing that I put him through so much for nothing. I'm looking forward to having the weekend off. I even have plans! I'm going to play Lego Batman on Saturday, and I'm going to Broadway Palms on Sunday for a matinee. My friend, Jessica, has free tickets. I also need to get my homework done, AND I'm taking Brandon to Olive Garden for linner on Saturday. The busier I stay, the less time I have to brood. Well, since I took a couple of sleeping pills over two hours ago, I should probably get some sleep. Good night everyone. Sleep well.

A Sad Goodbye

This is a day that I will be happy to see the last of. It started out before my 7:15 alarm went off. I had planned on feeding Smudge before I went to work. I called to him, but there was no response. I could see him in the little house at the bottom of the kitty condo. I reached in and he was cold and stiff. He had died some time during the night. I can't even begin to describe how I felt. I woke Rob up and him came in and took care of getting Smudge out and burying him. I couldn't have taken care of things myself. I told Brandon what had happened and he cried for the first time in years. We had gotten Smudge when he was very little, had been in Brandon's life for as long as he could remember. I managed to go to work, but would cry on and off. My co-workers were very understanding. Several of them have cats, too and are very attached to them. They knew how much I was hurting. I can't seem to stay focused, so I'm making this short. I'll write more about Smudge when my heart isn't hurting as much. Have a peaceful night. Good night.

Other People Have Bad Days Too

I didn't blog last night. I was tired. Not just my body, but my soul as well. I haven't had a good nights sleep in for as long as I remember. I'm in constant pain, I'm always stressed, and now I have worries about Smudge. I set my alarm for 8am, but woke up before 7:30. I needed to call the vets and get some help getting Smudge to eat. He's not eating on his own at all, he barely drinks and doesn't move around much. I have to mix a high calorie wet food with water and put it in a suringe. Then I have to force feed him the mixture. I also have to force a high calorie paste into him. Both of these I do three times a day. If that isn't enough, I still have to give him the IV every night. On top of all that, work has been crazy, with me having to be on desk 4 hours each day, I have Statistics homework and projects due, AND I have a son who calls me just to yell at me then hang up! When I called the office at CVI, I did it out of concern. Not to fuck with my son's life! I am not there and I worry about him. I guess that makes me a terrible person! Im not perfect, but I try to be a good person and do the right things. I'm an awful mom, an ungrateful girlfriend, and a bitter employee. Now that all my shortcomings are known, I think I'll take care of the cat and go to bed. At least when I'm asleep, I can't screw anything up. Rest well, friends.

Just a note. Smudge died during the night. He was the only male cat I've ever had and was very sweet. He will be missed, but he's not in pain any more.

Home is Where the Heart Is

That said, my home is in two places. I may be back in Fort Myers, but I left part of my heart in Orlando. I had such a wonderful time with Christopher. Just talking to him is nice (even if I don't always understand everything that he says). I tortured him this morning by making him get up. I knew that we didn't have much time together today before I had to leave. We got up, got showers and headed out. First stop: Costco. We wandered around looking for snacks and other supplies. Next stop: Target. Our main reason for going there was to get Cherry Coke and look for a de-humidifier. Couldn't find a de-humidifier and forgot the Cherry Coke. We did find one of those products advertised on TV to remove scratches from your car. We headed out for food at Boston Market next. I was dreading what was coming next. It was time for me to leave. I have school on Monday nights and needed to be back in town no later than 5:30. As much as I love seeing my son, leaving him tears me up inside. It's not that I think that he can't live without me, it's just that I truely enjoy his company. He makes me smile. I can see so much potential in him. Even he doesn't always see that. I know that someday he will make his mark on this world. I just hope that he has someone special to share that moment with (besides his mother, that is). I will keep believing that his future will bloom and grow and that someday he will look back on this time in his life and laugh. I have pretty much decided that I will continue blogging. I started out doing it for Christopher, now I'm doing it for me. I'm going to write what I think and feel and not worry about what anyone may say. Some of my blogs may be upbeat, and some may be dark and depressing. It will all depend on the kind of mood that I'm in. Oh, and I'm okay with spelling and grammar, but I suck at creating paragraphs! Too bad. Even though I don't have to be at work until 12:30 tomorrow, I'm getting up at 8. Smudge isn't eating or drinking on his own so I'm going to try to get him into the vets. As usual, I leave you with a wish for a pleasant nights sleep. TTFN

A Great Day

Wow! I had a wonderful day! I forgot how much I enjoyed being with Christopher. I woke up around 10 and tried to get him up and moving. I wasn't very successful, so I went back to sleep. When I woke up again, it was 1pm. I didn't want to waste all my time sleeping, so I made him get up and going. We went to Fazzolis for lunch, then headed out to Fort Christmas. It wasn't hard to find, and the drive was beautiful. I could easily live up here. There are still a lot of trees and country places. Fort Christmas was real neat. It was a fort that was started on Christmas day before the Seminole Indian war. It had a lot of old stuff from that time period through the early 1900s. They had some of the old Florida cracker style houses that we walked through. It was a beautiful day. Not too hot, with a little breeze. We walked all around and just talked. It was nice to just be able to relax. On the way back, I was talking about how nice it was around there with the trees and wildlife and Christopher didn't think there could be much wildlife left, with all the fences around. I told him that there were probably foxes, deer, boar and a lot of other animals. He didn't believe me. Just about that time, we passed the body of a deer that had been hit by a car! He should always trust his mother. Through all of our talking, I realized just how lonely my son was up here. He is happier in Orlando than he would be in Fort Myers, but he was very lonely. I hope that in time, that will change. Orlando is a much better environment for someone young than where he was, but it would have been easier on him if someone that he was close to had come up here with him. If things had been different, I would have come up here. I guess that's a regret I'll have to live with. The rest of our day flew by. We went to Target to get some supplies. Some sweats and a blanket were needed if I was going to get any sleep in the icebox that Christopher calls his room. We went back to his room, got showers, caught up on reading e-mail and blogs, then went out to Olive Garden for dinner. The dinner was okay, but the company was outstanding. When we got back, we did some things to our cars. Christopher took off his old steering wheel cover and put on his new one. I washed my windows and then Rain-Xed them. After all this, I still had homework to do. I might have put it off until Wednesday except for the fact that I have a test on that chapter on Monday. Oh well. It took a while, but I finally finished the three sections. I have to say, it came in handy at one point to have a math guru nearby. I need to get some sleep, since I plan on getting up at a decent time tomorrow. Christopher is too, whether he wants to or not! I have to leave town by 12:30 or 1, so if we're going out to restock supplies, we need to get moving at a reasonable hour. Maybe 9:30 or 10? Why do I have the feeling that I'm going to have a battle when I wake up? Guess that would be because I know my son. Have a great night everyone (I guess that means you, James and maybe Liz?).

Live! From Orlando

Well, after a long, tiring day, I ended up driving to Orlando. I was planning on coming up Sunday, but Christopher talked me into coming up after work Saturday. Since I knew that I'd never get up early, this seemed like the best way to spend the most time together. On the subject of work: sometimes, I get so tired of working with people who don't do their job. Either they just don't give a crap, or they have no frigging idea how to do things the right way! The mistakes that are made are out of laziness or stupidity. If I'm doing a job, I'm going to do a good job. I'll pay attention to details and do a job that I'm proud of. That said, I'm glad that I'm here in Orlando and I'm looking forward to spending time with my son. Since it's WAY past my bedtime and I'm really tired after my long day, I'm going to sleep. Luckily for Christopher, I can sleep while he's awake :)

I Wish...

that I could fix all the problems of the ones I love. I wish that I could give advice so great that all becomes right with the world. But I can't. We all have choices to make in life. Nobody can make those choices for us. Sometimes, we make the right choices. Sometimes, we make the wrong ones. Either way, we have to live with the consequences of those decisions. If things don't go the way that we had hoped, maybe some good can still come from it. Maybe we will learn something to keep us from making the same mistake again. As a parent, you always want to make everything perfect in you childs life. The older they get, the harder that is to do. After a while, all you can do is be there for them. It's probably one of the hardest parts of being a parent. That and trying to make your child understand that his life won't always be like this. Our lives are ever changing. We grow and adapt continuously. That's part of life. A year from now, we'll all be a little bit different than we are right now. Don't ever get so stuck in today that you can't reach for tomorrow. It's what makes life...life. Tomorrow, I will be posting from Orlando. Christopher talked me into coming up after work, instead of waiting until Sunday. I can't wait to see him. Well. Good night to all and to all a good night!

Somewhere in the Night

Inside my dreams you burn so bright, and I'm with you there and everythings alright. Somewhere in the night before the darkness turns to light, let me love you there...somewhere in the night. Those are the opening lines of a song that I first heard years ago in an episode entitled "Piano Man" from the series Quantum Leap. I spent much of my evening trying to find a copy of that song and the song Daybreak that was in the episode that aired before "Piano Man". After I finally found the songs, I decided that I had to have the lyrics to both songs. I had no trouble finding Somewhere, however, a lot of the sites that were supposed to have the lyrics for Daybreak actually had the lyrics for "Got to be Real". Both songs were dong by the same woman, Cheryl Lynn. When I finally found the correct lyrics, they wouldn't print. Everything else on the page would print, but not the lyrics. I was determined, though. I kept looking until I found printable lyrics. My day is now complete! Okay, I did manage to do more than track down some songs. I didn't go to work because my back was in bad shape. I didn't get much sleep because of it, and was very tired. I went to see the chiropractor and felt a little better. I had to take Smudge in to see the vet (again) because he wasn't eating. Hey, who could blame him. If I had just had 5 major teeth pulled, I wouldn't feel like eating either! The vet mixed up some high calorie food with warm water and force fed him the stuff. He wasn't too happy about it, but took it well. I managed to watch the series premire of Sanctuary. I haven't decided if I like it yet. I'll have to wait and see how the next couple of episodes are. I also saw the third episode of Fringe. I wasn't sure if I liked that series after the first episode, but it's grown on me. Well, I have two more days of work, then I get to visit Christopher! Yeah!! It will be nice to talk face to face for a change. Our personalities are enough alike that he's very easy to be with for me. I never feel like I have to be anyone besides myself. That's a nice feeling. I wish that I had more than 24 hours, but, hopefully I'll get more time with him at Thanksgiving. Guess I should get to bed. I REALLY hate mornings! I think that I'd like them better if the came later in the day :)

Short But Sweet

I have two words. South Park. That pretty much sums up my day. What's the world coming to when you shoot people in the dicks? I laughed my ass off! I need sleep. Smudge had 5 teeth pulled, but is doing good. He's home, laying on my legs. Sweet dreams all.

Somewhere, Over the Rainbow

I sometimes wonder if I'll live long enough to see any of my dreams come true. I have this picture in my head of how I want my life to be, and it's nothing like my reality! In my dream world, I have plenty of money, I have my Marine Biology degree, I live in a nice clean house and everthing is great. Reality's a bitch! I'll probably be too old to do anything with my degree when I finally get it, I will ALWAYS be broke and having a clean house isn't going to happen unless someone else cleans it. Oh well. I have to take Smudge to the vet for his teeth extractions. I hope everything goes well. I'm really worried. If all goes well, I can bring him home after 4 tomorrow. I'm planning on leaving early, so that I can get him. I'm looking forward to going to Orlando to visit Christopher. Even though I talk to him every day, I miss seeing him. Since it will be just the two of us, we can do whatever we want. If the weather's nice, I'd like to go to Christmas. We went there when he was little and I remember it as a nice place. It's strange visiting places that we went to over 10 years ago. I imagine that I might have a difficult time convincing him to do something that's outside. He's such an indoor person. Maybe, since I don't get to see him very often, he'll humor me (hint, hint). Well, I haven't been sleeping well for a while and I have to get up at 7, so I'm going to bed. Or rather, to chair.

Probability

The title of this blog comes from my statistics class. What is the probability that I'll snap one day and tell someone off? Based on my lack of sleep, being around annoying people and my slipping sanity, I'd say that the probability is 1. I didn't get a chance to blog last night because someone in the room with me was being a smothering ass! He was having a fit because I was chatting with Christopher! I had been on my laptop, and he was on his, but as soon as he saw that I was chatting with Christopher, he started on about how that was "our" time and that I was being rude. If you've ever chatted with Christopher while he's doing other things, you know that you type a couple of words, then a short time later he types a couple of words. It doesn't take undivided attention! If that man doesn't stop trying to shut everyone one that I love out of my life (my sons), then he'll end up chasing me away. My sons are the biggest part of my life and I plan on them being a part of my life as long as they want to be, to whatever degree they'd like! And yes, I'll probably end up one of those old ladies with a bunch of cats around, waiting for her sons to call her. Pretty pathetic, huh? At least I'll never be alone. I'll always have the cats.

Lazy Daze

What an unproductive day! I never got out of my pjs. I got up at 7 and moved from the chair to my bed. I had a killer headache and just wanted to sleep. When I woke up again, it was 10:30. I called my poor, long-distance son and made him wake up, too. Misery loves company. I sent Brandon out to mow the lawn and grabbed a bagel. I needed to brace myself for the next task. Yep. Time to give Smudge his IV. I hate doing it. I'm so afraid that I'll screw it up! If I do, I might hurt him and he won't get enough fluids. This time, my fear kept me from putting the needle far enough in and it came out when he moved a little. Fluid went spraying out the needle. My able assistant, Brandon got it turned off pretty quickly. I thought that I should give it a rest and try to give him some more before bed. I needed something to cheer myself up with, so Bran and I went upstairs to play Lego Batman. God, I love that game! It's funny and I get to smash everything. What more could a gal ask for? We played for a while, then I made pizza for us. While we ate, we watched Big Bang Theory. The episodes are short. Perfect for a lunch break. After that it was back to more Batman. Our next break was for me to bake an apple pie. Then another episode of BBT while we ate our pie (are you starting to see the pattern?). We played for several more hours and then Brandon went out for a late dinner with his dad. I decided to read in my room with the cats while he was gone. During this time I got a call from Christopher. He had a note on his car about his tag being expired AND not belonging to that vehicle. Oops! I guess that when his dad had both registrations, he gave Christopher the wrong one. Good thing his dad is coming up there on Monday. When Brandon came back, we tried the IV thing again. I really do suck at that. When we finished up, guess what I did next. Yup. More Lego Batman! Since Rob wasn't here, I had all that free time. We played until almost 11:30 and then decided to call it a night. I didn't have much to do to get ready for bed since I was still in my pajamas, so I picked up my laptop and started working on my blog. Told you it wasn't much of a day :)

Two Days in a Row!

Wow! I'm on a roll! Don't get your hopes up too much, Christopher. This probably won't last. My day was pretty much the same as all my work days. I always seem to have more to do, then time to get it done. I haven't been sleeping well, and I had to get up early. After I got my shower, I managed to work up the courage to give Smudge his IV. I did a pretty good job for my first time. I think it's because he's such a mellow cat. Oh. Did I mention that part of the reason that I'm not sleeping well is that my Siamese kitten is in heat? There's nothing louder or more annoying than a Siamese. She's a sweet, loving kitten when not in heat. Now, she's a demon. After work, Rob took me out to dinner. After a couple of beers and prime rib, I was feeling pretty good. I played Lego Batman with Brandon for a while after getting home, then watched an interview with Ted Nugent. He'll turn 60 on Dec. 13. He's a character! He doesn't drink or smoke and never has. He's never done drugs, either. Amazing, huh? He's very outspoken. Well, the Tylenol PM is starting to kick in.

I Must Be Crzy!

I can't belive that I'm doing this! I guess after reading all the other blogs, I got a little inspired. My day started out way too early. I had to give Smudge some medicine and then take him to the vets. I found out how his lab work came out and then learned how to give him an IV of fluid. I have to do that every day until Wednesday when they remove his damaged teeth. Guess it's a good thing that I don't have the problem with needles that Christopher has! After the vets it was off to work. Yee haw! It's not a bad job, as things go, but it's not what I want to spend the rest of my life doing. Most of the time I like my co-workers, but sometimes...Many of them have been there so long that they have the "I don't give a shit" attitude. They make stupid mistakes that could be avoided if they took the time to do their jobs the right way. Some of the mistakes are minor, but some are big ones that make my job harder. I feel like I spend too much time cleaning up other peoples screw-ups. What I'd really like to be doing with my life is working with dolphins. If I ever finish college, that's what I hope to do. I don't care if I work at Sea World, or a little research facility in the keys. I just want to work around something that I can have some respect for. Well, guess that's enough bitching for one night. I have to be up by 7am tomorrow to give Smudge his IV before I go to work. I hope that I don't lose my mind while I'm there. If the day really sucks, I have a bottle of wine in the fridge!